"This Is My Beloved Son"

During the Sundays following Pentecost, we have been meditating on the question of identity: God's Identity, as He roams as a disguised King through the encampments of His people, and our own identities as we insist on the prerogative to claim our own truths, to write our own rules, and to decide who and what we are .... even to the point of surgical alteration. These are deep waters, indeed. They cannot be settled in news headlines. Many have chosen to claim identity based on their sexual urges and preferences. But what could be more shallow? What could possibly doom us more certainly to emptiness and confusion at life's end: To have decided identity on the basis of sexual desire?

No, the questions we face are far deeper than darting desires or the excesses of dark imagination. As we have shared in previous meditations, God, Who is the deep center, the kernel, the basis of our identity is inscrutable and unknowable. So wrote the Cappadocian Father, St. Gregory of Nyssa. By that same measure, we who are made in God's Image are also unknowable and inscrutable.

Coming to stable and right identity is the point of human life: our spiritual development whose endpoint is identity with God. But how can we do this since we do not know where we are going nor even what our destination should look like? This was the state of the world before the Advent of Christ. And this was the riddle God countenanced and answered by sending His Son into the world.

The Church Fathers explored this subject at length. St. Athanasius wrote that the portrait of humankind had been defaced through sin, but no human was worthy to sit for the portrait that it might be restored. What should humankind look like? What is the true image of God's adopted sons and daughters? One century earlier, Origen wrote that the Great Emperor's Image had been stamped upon silver coins, but the grit and darkness of the world had reduced these once brilliant coins to indecipherable slugs. We no longer knew what we were made to be. We had forgotten who we were. So the Great Emperor sent His Son, the Heir, that the Divine Image might be restored. He would set His countenance upon our silver. He would sit for the portrait of humanity. He would show us the noble image that all humans were created to bear.

For three years He presented this royal Image to men and women all throughout the Levant, which was the historical setting for the Lost Tribes of Israel. But recognizing this Image, coming to the deep insight that it was, in fact, their own — this would be no simple process. They must be driven to reach back through the mists of time, to delve into the deep recesses of their racial memory, to pore over the Holy Scriptures with comprehensive understanding, and to approach this subject with the sensitive intelligence of an angel. Only a searching heart and soul might take up this work. So He challenged them, taking them to the brink of their settled assumptions, and beyond, driving them further, further than they wanted to go: into the teeth of mighty tempests, surrounded by legions of demons, midst the deafening hoof beats of charging boars, and beset by menacing authority figures, centered in the Zion Temple and rooted in the Graeco-Roman culture of the Roman Empire.

Directing them to reflect on the latter, Jesus led His Disciples to Caesarea-Philippi, an ancient center of spiritual power in the pagan world. Here the most ancient god, Pan (meaning "all things"), was worshiped in one of his primary shrines, the temple at Pan's Grotto. The pagans understood Pan to preside over the entire natural order. His antiquity and prestige were considered to be coeval with Creation itself. Here also at Caesarea-Philippi stood the Temple to Augustus, built from massive white stones soaring to the skies. Of this Temple, Josephus Flavius wrote,

It was here, at the sacred head waters of the Jordan, with its cool mists refreshing pilgrims in the Levantine heat, that Jesus seated His Disciples. Behind Him they would have seen these most-revered shrines of the pagan world. Around them they would have felt the heady mists of the bubbling Jordan springs. And confronting them would have been the master question of their Discipleship .... and ours:

Among all the gods, among all kings and emperors, among all the power brokers of this world, "Who do you say I AM?"

From there Jesus takes them to the highest mountain summit, not far from Pan's Grotto. Not all are permitted to ascend just as not all Israelites were permitted to ascend Mt. Sinai — only the sons of Zebedee and Peter. And there they beheld Moses .... and Elijah. We might say they stood before the Law and the Prophets. But let us not forget during this fore-season of the Assumption of the Most Holy Theotokos, that they stood before the deathless ones. For Moses left no tomb (a common mark of the other Patriarchs), and Elijah was assumed directly into Heaven riding a flaming chariot.

Peter falling down nearly blind said,

.... remembering the booths he saw carved into the hillside at the Grotto of Pan, likening the prophets to pagan gods. But his foolishness is quickly interrupted by the thunderous tones of God the Father:

Do you see? Even while Peter is talking, a cloud overshadows them, and the Father speaks: "This is no pagan god. This is My Son. Hear Him! Hear Him! Leave off from the foolish beliefs of culture and the inventions of benighted imaginations. Hear Him!" For He was sent from the Father to be our only Guide and Exemplar.

Yes, the Disciples were taken to the brink of human capacity and beyond. They were shown the shallows of their own minds and the limits of human knowledge. In its place is set one Whose

Here is our Identity. We would say that a spotlight was shining upon Jesus: "Here! This is who you are! Here! This is your destination. Here is your birthright." The human portrait is bountifully renewed from His face lit from within. The Great Emperor's face has been minted once again upon pure, white silver.

The Lord's face is revealed, and with it our own. Finally, our restless seeking after identity — in surgeons' operating rooms, on psychiatrists' couches, laying claims to identity on Facebook and Instagram — our restless seeking comes to an end. And we are given peace, even unto our souls. For our identity, our destination, and the meaning of our lives have been restored .... if only we will receive this incommensurable gift.

In the Name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Ghost. Amen.